Everything responds to love...

Hey Littles!!!

It is almost midnight on January 12th, tomorrow would have been your Grandpa's 69th birthday. He wouldn't have wanted to make a big deal out of it, he never wanted his birthdays to be a big deal, that was part of how he was...I really miss him. I think I will spend the day telling you guys all about him and printing out pictures for your photo albums...what an awesome way to celebrate his birthday!

Anyway, the main reason why I am writing this short little note is to tell you both how much you love and adore each other even now. We co-sleep, which means we all sleep in the same bed. It keeps everyone happy and for the most part, we all sleep pretty well. Since you sweet littles go to sleep earlier than me, when I do come to bed, I get to see how you look for each other. Tonight, Ava is snuggled up close to her big brother sleeping more soundly then most nights. This....melts my heart! You guys know that you are safe together, you know that you are from the same tree, if you will, the same love created you both. I realize in this moment that the more love I pour into you and into raising you, the more love you will show to the world. And it's already starting to show...

xoxo
Momma

What now?!

Hello again babies!

Things are good, the weather is amazing and I have a quick memory of your Grandpa that I wanted to share with you both....take a walk down memory lane with me, won't you?

I am 9 months pregnant, pretty much ready to pop and it is the middle of AUGUST in South Carolina. Your grandparents have only been here a couple days as we await Aydan's arrival and I am facing another restless and sleepless night. Grandma was already sleeping and I think Daddy had to work. I am sitting in the living room rocking in the blue recliner, which is currently in our garage, hoping to get even a little reprieve from heartburn. Your Grandpa and I are watching 20/20. We don't talk much but it is a great comfort to know that I am not alone. We talk about how different life is, how ready I am to finally hold my little boy and how glad I am they are here to share in this huge moment with me and your Daddy.

That feeling of comfort and peace washes over me again as I type this. Just knowing that my Dad was there with me, keeping me company brings a smile to my face. We didn't talk much, but we didn't need to. I was his baby and he was my dad and he was there. I miss just having him here. I missing knowing that I could walk upstairs and just see him, know that he was there.

Hold tight to the memories you have of the ones you love most. Unfortunately, one day they will be gone and that will be all you have left. I love you both to the moon and back!

XOXO
Momma

Everything in God's Timing

I have never been one to judge God's timing, I know deep in my heart that everything happens for a reason. But I am only human and cannot help but wonder, "why now?"

I have been an official stay at home mom for almost 4 months now and it has been quite an adjustment, for all of us. But we are making it work and I love every moment of it, even the moments where you make me crazy.

I have been doing some serious soul searching and trying to figure things out. Last Sunday, we went to church and the speaker said EXACTLY what I needed to hear.

Since I became a SAHM, I have often wondered how bills would be paid, how ends would be met, I have feared for the future. I have only been maintaining the present because I am afraid. I should be engaging it, engaging both of you! Enjoying each and every precious moment because the time passes so quickly and I refuse to have any regrets when I look back on this time we have shared.

After Ava's first birthday, I will be opening an Etsy shop. I am terrified, but I know that God is going to bless this venture because it is something He placed on my heart in July of 2012! He will make a way, it may not be the way I want it to happen, but it WILL happen!

Trust in the Lord, my beautiful babies! He will provide, He will protect and He will guide each and every single one of your steps. I know this, because He has done it for me. As I look back, I can see all the times He closed a door on an opportunity only to provide me with something EVEN BETTER!

The desires of your heart will be given to you, you just have to wait on God's timing!

Love you!!

xoxox
Momma